Sunday, February 28, 2010

Leaving my Cocoon

"I think the hardest part of holding on is letting it go." - P.O.D., Goodbye for Now

I made a very difficult decision a couple of days ago. I realized that there was no benefit, other than social, to me or the guild, to be had by my staying. I found a guild that is just starting out, but wants progression.

Thursday night, I waited until the guys were done for the night, not wanting to drop a bomb like that on them in the middle of a raid. It would either distract them from their focus, or they would be so focused they couldn't say goodbye, and I needed that goodbye.

I don't think I could have scripted a better response. I knew that if I left, I wanted to leave with the well-wishes and support of my friends. To be told "I hate seeing you leave, but this is the right move for you," was amazing.

So, I'm picking up writing again, more to chronicle what it's like helping to build a raiding guild as a disabled player than anything else. My new guild is also more female-dominated than any other guild I've been in, so I will undoubtably have some perspective on that.